Jasmine2, 63

i have never been in this type of relationship before but just say i need to tell you all a story and maybe you will understand why i say i am made for it .
14ys ago i met a young man where i worked and i knew he was married but i let him talk me into seeing him and into letting him move into my home where my ex and i used to live with me and was still paying the house note {yes } and from the beginning his wife found out silly boy left my number in his pants pocket .well ,to make a very long story short i told his wife she could deal with me {an older woman }or these younger women out there so from the start when he would leave my home i would call her and tell her he was on the way to her {an hour away and to work} and when he left her she would call me .so you see we the man o lockdown and he didn't even know it until years later way after we had done broken up .and also he never knew me and his wife went in the funiture store and i was the one who picked out the couch that is in his living room today .
even now when their oldest child died he calls me and she does and they both talk to me but i never say what the other says to me but i love them both but i made i promise to her 14 yrs ago to her that i would never see him again i have never broken that promise but i still love both of them and i would help them and the remaining 2 kids whom are grown adults now.
there is a lot more to this but i can not tell it cause it is very personal and it has a very sad ending ,you see this young man was found dead in in bed of a heart attack this year (23) by his wife they were living separt and she had a stroke not too long ago which left her disable and this is why i am at a point in my life where i want to have only one person in my life ........really .....cause as you get older and wiser you realize ...you only need ...one to make you happy.